Disability deeply affected Yu Xiuhua’s love and life. Her emotions and desires were ignored for a long time, and poetry became the only way to convey them. The impact of disability on her is not only at the life level, but also at the psychological and spiritual level. By examining the repeated writing of love and desire in his poems, a gradual psychological logic can be reconstructed: inferiority, depression, collapse, explosion, submergence and promotion, a process like spiral rise. Because of her disability, she was discriminated and humiliated, unable to get love, and her desires could not be relieved. Over time, the frustrations gradually turned into inferiority, depression and strong self-doubt and self-judgment. The accumulation of these negative emotions inevitably led to collapse and outbreak, so it was shown as the writing of indulgence in poetry, which was the way to seek self-redemption, otherwise life would be blocked and ruptured like ducts. Yu Xiuhua’s love and desire writing did not stop there. "I Love You" shows the improvement after catharsis. The poem promotes love from relationship to essence, thus thoroughly getting rid of the dependence on the outside. The subjectivity and meaning of individual being are fully demonstrated. This process enhanced her understanding of love and her realm of life. Yu Xiuhua’s writing about love and desire is not only an arduous journey in the struggle against disability, but also a heavenly journey to highlight subjectivity and strengthen the meaning of life, showing her purgatory-like mental process of rapprochement with fate. Yu Xiuhua’s writing not only plays the role of personal redemption, but also provides exemplary inspiration for people in similar situations and enriches the imagination and expression of love in new Chinese literature, so it is a special specimen with irreplaceable significance.